Stressball = weight gain

So here we are working on selling our house. We have an offer and the conditions need to be lifted by Wednesday. Well, I think that there is only 1 out of the 5 conditions that have been cleared!!! One of them is a problem with our water. It seems no matter what I do, it's not clearing. We don't drink it but the water should be perfect. It was perfect when we put the house up for sale back in April. Very odd that ALL OF A SUDDEN, it's not clear. I did another test this morning and my fingers are crossed, but something tells me it will come back bad again. I know, I know, positive thinking but it's hard these days. The buyer is also trying to work out his financing. He has the money from the sale of his house, but it will only be available April 2012. He's trying to work something out with his bank. Still no news on that one either! He's been working on it since the 14th!!!! That can't be good right? And of course the house inspection is "scheduled" for Wednesday as well. So needless to say that I am a BIG STRESSBALL atm.
And of course, I'm down about it all and not being with DH doesn't help. So my healthy meal making is all but non-existent (obviously any healthy eating is out of the question). Of course that means that I'm gaining weight like crazy. I had some great weightloss in July but then everything went downhill. I've gained about 7 lbs since then and it feels like 37! I'm bloated and feeling horrible. Some minor symptoms from PCOS are creeping back up as well.
With us wanting to work on baby #3 as soon as we live together again, this isn't the way to go to get there. We were very lucky with baby #2 that we had no medical intervention, but if I keep things going the way they are, we will be back to square one and seeking medical help for conception. I would rather not go this route.
I'm searching for the motivation to get back on the healthy meal train, but it's hiding really well this time. I know that I will have to do WW again to lose the weight. I will try the online version for the 3 month special. That should give me enough time to lose some weight and get ready for another baby. But again, that rests on us selling the house. So much is resting on this. Lots of prayers, fingers crossed and positive vibes. And if you have some that you can send my way too - that would be greatly appreciated :)

Latest update from us

So, the princess had her 6 month shots yesterday and her weigh-in. The shots went well. She cried a little and wasn't too fussy. Her weight is 19lbs 9.5oz and she measures a little more than 26". She is our solid little girl. She's chubby but still within the "standard" curve as per the Dr. So no need to worry. She's happy and healthy - what more could I ask for.
She's doing well on the food front. She's pretty good at letting me know what she likes and doesn't like. And we are still doing a little of both of the purees and the BLW. She loves her cucumber!! So we are going to keep on track with it and see how it goes.

AFM, I'm actually gaining weight and I'm so disappointed. I've pulled out my old WW stuff, but I still can't seem to find the motivation. I don't know if it's because of the weather or what. You would think that I would be really motivated because it's summer...but idk...
We are going to be getting one of those attachments for the bike that looks like a mini tent/RV for kids. I can't wait for that...a lot of quiet country roads out here for that. Our neighbours' daughter is going to sell it to us for like $50. Can't wait!! But there's nothing really stopping me from getting my butt on the treadmill. Just me being lazy. And if we are going to try for baby #2 in the next 2-3 months, I have to get healthy. I have a feeling it's going to be a tough go for baby #2, and my extra weight will just make it harder. Dang this PCOS...so frustrating.

So much yet not much!

Things have been pretty crazy lately but not very busy. Odd I know, but it's true.
I haven't written about my weight because I stayed the same as I did previously. So nothing interesting there.
We have started trying to sort out our flower beds and where we will put the garden. The flower beds are taking longer than we ever imagined. We took possession of this house last July so by the time we moved in on Sept 1, everything had grown so far out of control that we didn't even attempt to tackle it. The elderly gentleman that we bought the house from had lived here for 4 years but was unable to take care of it. The millions of rose bushes were OUT OF CONTROL. We have tried to tame them and will get rid of a lot of them. Then there are the bazillion peonies and all the ants they attract. More stuff to get rid of. Along the entire back of the house are hollyhocks. My hubby's favorite lol. They end up standing about 8-10ft tall. It's crazy I tell you.
On the side of the house, we have a crab apple tree and mcintosch apple tree. Around the base of both, making one long oval flower bed, are TONS of flowers that we didn't even know were there last year. So we are trying to fix that up. It's almost done. Then it will be a matter of weeding it every once in a while.
Maybe I should mention that we live in a house that was built in 1952 so there are a lot of mature trees and lilac bushes. It's beautiful but needs to be put under control.
Ok - back to my flower beds. In the front of the house, there is a slight hill. On this hill is a big flower bed that is framed by large stones, cemented together. There are some very pretty flowers in it as well. But you would never know it since it looks like a part of the lawn. It is full of grass and weeds. Since this is a job for 2 people, we tackled it on Sunday. We got only a third of it done and we filled 1 garbage bag with the weeds/grass. It's unbelievable.
That's pretty much what has been keeping me busy lately.
We both really love the whole gardening thing and putting around the house on a Sunday.
So we are going to try for the rest of the summer to stay put on Sundays and do some putting. I know, I know, we aren't that old yet! But let me tell you - we just love it :)
I'm going to try and attach some pics of the yard.

3lbs, really???

So I weighed in yesterday. And to my BIG surprise, I lost 3lbs. Wow. I still kinda don't believe it. I've had 3 weigh ins in a row where I have lost more than 1lb. It has to be the arm weight routine that I added. I haven't changed how I eat so that's the only difference these days.
But, I am so slacking on the cardio part. I really don't have the oumph to workout.
I guess I better get in gear, otherwise, I won't lose anything next weekend!

Another day, another pound (I hope)

This week has been pretty brutal. I really went off the wagon. But it's the first time since I began my WW's journey, so I am not going to be too hard on myself. All I'm hoping is that I stay the same weight. I can handle that. It didn't help that I TOTALLY slacked in the exercise department. It really has been a bad week for me. I think the whole POAS outcome really got to me. But it's a new week (WW's wise), and I get to start "fresh".

I won't be making anything exciting this weekend since it is going to be the perfect BBQ weekend. Finally some nice weather!

Just not feeling it

So tomorrow morning, we are going to take a test. I'm pretty sure it is going to be a BFN but I have to take it to be sure. I feel like I'm tumbling backwards. This no period thing is taking me back to before I was dx with PCOS. I just hope that the RE doesn't have us start all over again. I think if that were the case, I would take some time off from the whole TTC job. Yes I said job. That is what it is starting to feel like and it shouldn't.

I did have a great weigh in today at Weight Watchers. I'm down another 1.5 lbs. 19 lbs to go until goal weight! Maybe by the end of summer I will have reached goal.

Going to try and relax tonight if I can...will be back tomorrow with the outcome. Although I'm pretty sure already :(

Oh and I'm making weight watchers lasagna tomorrow and some no bake lemon cheesecake squares (only 3pts!).

Gotta be happy about something...

Good news first - I went to my WI this morning and lo and behold, I have lost another 2.5 lbs. w00t! I now have 20.5 lbs to go until goal weight. I can't wait!

Bad news. I went to my appt on Thursday and of course I still have 2 cysts that need to heal. So I am on a continued break. I have another appointment on May 1st to see if they have healed anymore. She did say that they have reduced since the last time. But not enough to start back with the meds. I then asked her if she thought I may have ovulated on my own since I have lost so much weight. And her response was, "about as likely as you did before". Nice. She didn't say it in a mean way or anything. I'm sure she was just being realistic about it. But after hearing that I was not going to start back on the fert drugs this month, I was pretty upset by her comment.
I was pretty sure I O'd this month...but who knows. I guess I will just wait and see.

Beware - mini vent/rant
I also got news that another one of my friends is pg. I am so happy for her but I was so sad and upset at the same time. I really wonder if it is going to happen for us. I mean it has been almost 2 1/2 years since we started this journey. The ups and downs are really taking their toll. I find that when I'm alone, it's all I think about and it brings me down. So much so that I am almost in tears. I know that my DH feels useless when he sees me like this, so I try not to let it show.
Then on Friday, about 20 min before the end of my work day, my boss hands me my time off request sheet back approved for May 1st and he says that I should go to my HR dept and tell them all about what I am going through. I almost died. He knows about it but he feels that they should be made aware as well because they have flagged me for my absences. Yay. Just what I need. To be watched and "spoken to" for absences on top of why I am going to all these appts. It's not upsetting enough. I'm afraid that if I tell them, it will make its way around the office. Then there's the point - it won't make a difference if I tell them why, they are still going to flag me for my absences and hold it against me at the end of the year when it is raise/bonus time. GAWD this is such a pain!!! I'm sure my boss is right and I should let them know.
I'm sure I'm PMSing - that's why I'm in a slump right now. I know I will bounce back soon enough :)

Blah Blah Blah

I had my weigh in yesterday and I didn't lose anything, I stayed the same weight as the week before. I'm hoping it's because I added weights to my workouts this week. I ate pretty much as I always do. So I'm crossing my fingers that it is the weights. Only time will tell!!

I made a cake Friday night for this weekends festivities. I brought half of it with me to the in-laws for lunch and the other half is for our supper tonight. The cake is out of this world. I can't believe it is a low-fat carrot cake. No one could tell the difference. It is the "Must Bake Carrot Cake" from the CrazyPlates cookbook. Incredible! I didn't take any pics because I was in such a rush yesterday morning.

So I am supposed to O in the next day or so. We are hopeful that this month is it. But then again, we feel this every month lol. I have been told to BD every other day by fellow Cysters but my RE hasn't said anything about that. So DH and I have decided to BD when we want to! If it is every day, then it is every day. DH has said that his sperm should be OK because he has super sperm. The RE shared his s/a results on our last follow up. His count was at 75mil. and 70% mot.
The RE has said that she likes to see it at 25mil. and 50% mot. So he is good to go!!

Weigh in tomorrow

So tomorrow is weigh in. Not sure how I did this week since I really didn't plan my meals for the week. I'm disappointed but who knows. I would love to lose 1 pound because that would bring me into a new level. I didn't exercise as much as I wanted either. For whatever reason, I can't seem to get adjusted to the time change.
With the gym opening up again after renovations at work, I will be able to do my weights and abs there. Leaving me with cardio to do at home, which I currently do at 4:30am.
So as of today, I have lost a total of 39 pounds. I'm hoping for at least one more tomorrow.

Trying not to think too much about babies. But it's hard with so many people in my circle of friends and co-workers either pregnant or with kids. I'm on cd11 and I should O somewhere around March 25th. RE says that I shouldn't bother temping since I am monitored throughout my cycles so closely. This cycle being the exception of course since I am on a break due to cysts. I'm hoping they will heal by the time I go for my next u/s so we can start back on the Serophene and start Ovidrel.

Well, here it goes!!

So here is my first post with Blogger!
I want to share my ups and downs of TTC, PCOS and weight loss. I will also try to share some low-fat/cal recipes that I have tried.

I am trying to lose the weight that I have put on in the last few years. I joined weight watchers on Nov 24 and so far I have lost a total of 39lbs. So I am very excited about that!! 25lbs to go to reach goal weight!
Since losing the weight, some of my PCOS symptoms have gone away. What a bonus.
Now I'm hoping that the weight loss will also help us to conceive.
I am currently on a break from the Serophene and follow ups until April 3rd when my RE will hopefully give us the A-OK to get back on. I have hemorrhagic cysts that must heal before we try again, so I am crossing my fingers that all is good. And if it is, we will also start the Ovidrel. Nothing but good things to come!
But I am still secretly hoping that this month, since I am not being poked and drugged, maybe, just maybe, I will ovulate on my own and we will get pg.