Moved on, but...

So my hubby and I stopped trying for a baby in Feb/March. We then argued about who was going for the operation to ensure no more babies. That one is still in discussions.
I was going to have a tooth pulled and since I was late, my hubby said to check to be sure. So dollar store test it is. Well at 6:15am on May 4th, that test came back positive! I was certain it wasn't working but hubby said, um...you might want to look again. I sent him straight out to get a digital and lo and behold, it said pregnant. We were overwhelmed and shocked to say the least. We had closed the chapter and in our minds moved on. So to know we were going back into diapers and schedules, we were unsure. I know that we are blessed and I feel horrible to say that it has taken me some months to fully come around and be happy. I never thought I would feel this way, but I guess that's why it's called a surprise.
I still have my moments where I say OMG is this happening LOL. There have been minor complications already, which is probably adding to the whole OMG thing. Because of my advanced maternal age, I'm considered high risk. I askedmy OB to have my sugar test early, so at 16 weeks, I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. I will be 17 weeks on Monday. I also found out that we are "watching" my blood platelets as they are a little low. My OB didn't seem overly concerned but it is on her radar. I'm trying not to google about it so that I don't freak myself out.
Both my kids are over the moon. I'm happy that my daughter will be 5 when this baby is born but on the other hand, she will be 5!! I just hope that the kids will all get along. My son is looking forward to a little brother and my daughter is convinced it is a girl (whom she has already named Rosie LOL). We didn't find out the sex of either of our previous pregnancies but this time, we are finding out. We have so many bins filled with clothes and we need the space. So it's time to purge those clothes.
So a twist in our family plans, but one that is going to be fun!!
We have told most of our immediate family and only a few friends. I don't know why, but I'm trying to keep it off FB. I'm going home for a visit in Aug and I guess I want to surprise some friends.

Time for the next chapter

So now that we have been trying for a baby for a year with no success, it's time to move forward. We are beyond blessed with the 2 crazy little monkeys that we have and although we would be happy with a 3rd blessing, we are getting settled as a family of 4.
My hubby and I haven't had "the talk" yet about who is going to take things to the next level of protection. I don't know if I want to go for yet another surgery. I guess we will see.
Now I can fully focus on my health. It has been going in a downward spiral for quite some time now and all the work I did with WW is going down the tubes. I have to take charge of my health now.
Eating - I try my best to eat healthy. We don't buy processed foods and rarely go out to eat. My problem is the amount I eat. And the lack of fruits and vegetables. So I have to change my meal plans to incorporate more. And make a point of not eating too much.
Exercise - this is a big part of my problem. I have such a problem finding the time to do it. With my DH gone and very busy kids, when the kids go to bed, I'm done. Like so done. So I have to figure out how I can get some time in to exercise without adding a price to it. I have a treadmill, so I just need to get down while the kids are asleep or something. I can't put my son in casual care as it will cost me money. Money we don't have.
** update **
I will be doing Day 2 of Week 2 from the Ease into 5K app on Wednesday. With my hubby home for the next month, I'm taking advantage and working out in the morning before he leaves for work. I'm not sure what will happen in the new year but for now, this is it. If the kids slept, I could exercise before they wake up. But my kids are up at like 5am, so that's a no go. I'm also going to try and incorporate some weights twice a week. At least for now.

Gearing up for the return

Only a few days left until my DH is home. We missed out on TTC this month, but will hopefully get a chance next month. We may actually get 2 months in a row to try and then he'll be gone again. I'm not sure how long I am going to give this a go. I don't think I want to be older than 39 having a little one. And I'm really enjoying the kids getting older. We have already decided that we are not going to do any special attempts - no fertility drugs or any specialists. I want to enjoy my children and I feel completely blessed to have them and if I get wrapped up in TTC like I have in the past, I just wouldn't enjoy it and know they would feel the stress.
So, if we end up with just 2 beautiful kids, then we are so very happy. If we are blessed with a third, we will be just as happy.
So here's to 2 coming months of just seeing how it goes, watching my CM and waiting for EWCM!!

Not much a-happening

With my DH away until May, there is nothing happening on the TTC front. I was doing well with the ease into 5K but I have had some late nights and the kids and I are sick again. Yet AGAIN. I'm so fed up of it. We have never been this sick. It's only since we moved here. I think it's because people don't keep their kids home from daycare or activities when they are sick, and then it spreads. It's so frustrating because I don't bring the kids anywhere when they are sick. So they suffer on missing their playgroups.
I'm hoping that they will be better. I need to lose weight. And I can't seem to do it. I can't seem to stick to anything and I know that I need to if we want another baby.

And it's a BFN

I woke up yesterday being dizzy, like I had never been before. It continued off and on throughout the day and then add in some nausea, and I was convinced that I was preggers. I picked up a pregnancy test while I was out and about.
I didn't sleep well at all last night, the dizziness kept me from getting a great sleep. So I took a pregnancy test this morning and it came back a BFN. I'm still really dizzy, and now I'm not sure what's causing it. It put my mind at ease thinking it was due to pregnancy but now, I don't know what it could be. Maybe just a virus that's giving me vertigo (which I've never had before). I dropped my DH off at work today because he has a short sail this week. And of course my MIL is away, so I'm hoping that this dizziness goes away very soon. UGH.
I'm sad that we didn't catch the egg. I thought for sure we would.
DH is not worried, we will tackle it again when he's back from his big sail this summer. The way I have to look at it, is now I have to focus on losing the weight. Maybe that will get me where I need to be. I have about 30lbs to lose to get to where I was before DD. The treadmill is almost 100% fixed, so I have no reason not to get going. Well, the dizziness is a good reason, but once that's gone, I'm going to do the couch to 5k.

2WW I *think*

So now that we are officially officially trying, I have been monitoring my cycle. I don't do temps because I would be so lost and also because it apparently doesn't work so well when you have PCOS. So I just monitor myself and the going ons down there. DH was away last week so I was hoping it wasn't going to happen then. I figured it would be by the weekend. But on Thursday I thought I noticed a change in CM. I made sure that we had some fun on Friday LOL. And then just like that, no more CM. Well, yesterday it was back in full force and then some!! So a little more fun was had! It was the perfect CM yesterday; egg white, stretchy and sticky! Of course DH is on duty tonight, so he won't be home until tomorrow evening. But I'm hoping we are gonna catch that eggie!! DH asked that I add onions to our meal last night as he believes that it gives him his "power". Or power to his swimmers. He's joking when he says it but it seems to have worked in the past!

So I believe that I am now in the 2WW. This is going to kill me. DH leaves mid-March, so we would find out if we are preggers just before he leaves. I'm glad for that! 

So here's to a quick and not too torturous 2WW!! 

January was a bust, as expected

So I am on to a new cycle. I am currently on CD 14. DH is sailing for the week so I'm hoping we don't miss the window (if things are working). I've lost about 2lbs so far, definitely not enough to get things working right again. But I have my fingers crossed. And I'm going to work at eating right this week and drinking lots of water.  I realized this morning that not only do I feel big and bloated, I actually look it. I mean I know I'm a big girl and all but I guess I didn't want to see it. I wanted to get a nice picture of DH and I but I look absolutely horrible in every picture no matter the angle.
I don't expect to lose tons of weight in 1 week to be able to ovulate, it is definitely a long term goal. But I'm tired of putting it off. Smaller portions. I've cut out soft drink and chips, so that will help (not that we ate tons of it) and I've changed to Body Wise bread. I don't eat after 7pm. The only thing that may kill my eating healthy this week is the amazing banana bread I made and monster chocolate chip cookies I tried. They are both sitting here teasing me LOL. I'm trying new baked goods recipes as I will be selling them soon enough. I'm looking forward to that. Bringing in some extra cash is always good!! And of course, I'm still waiting for our new parts for the treadmill to come in. Once I have those, it's Couch to 5K for me!! I find it easier to sneak a run into my day than a DVD workout. I don't know why, I just do. I have Jillian Michael's 30 day shred that I've done once. It's awesome but for some reason can't muster up the energy to do it at 9pm at night. And I'm sure you're asking the question, then how will you find the energy to run at night? I will, I love love love it. And I won't have to worry about waking the kids up because the treadmill is downstairs. The living room is much too small to workout and I worry about jumping around too much and waking the kids up. So once the parts are in and the treadmill is working, I won't have any excuse!!!
So here's to another TTC cycle and eating better.