1 more down - 23 to go!

So I am very happy that my weigh in on yesterday showed a loss of 1lb. I was sure I was going to gain. My eating has been pretty much out of control lately. I have a feeling it's because I'm PMSing. I get crazy moody and super hungry!!
But even if I am PMSing, I'm not too upset. I know that I will be seeing the RE on Thursday and hopefully we will get the "all clear" to start using a trigger.

So now the fun begins!

So I think that I am now in the 2WW. If AF doesn't show on April 8th, then it is time.
I know that I shouldn't think too much about it. I will be working with the RE and a trigger shot on my next cycle if my cysts have healed. But I am still hopeful that I may have pulled it off this month on my own. So I will be analyzing every little thing I feel, wondering if it is a symptom.
I will try to concentrate on my exercise and weight loss in the hopes that I won't think about it too much (ya right!).

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I had my weigh in yesterday and I didn't lose anything, I stayed the same weight as the week before. I'm hoping it's because I added weights to my workouts this week. I ate pretty much as I always do. So I'm crossing my fingers that it is the weights. Only time will tell!!

I made a cake Friday night for this weekends festivities. I brought half of it with me to the in-laws for lunch and the other half is for our supper tonight. The cake is out of this world. I can't believe it is a low-fat carrot cake. No one could tell the difference. It is the "Must Bake Carrot Cake" from the CrazyPlates cookbook. Incredible! I didn't take any pics because I was in such a rush yesterday morning.

So I am supposed to O in the next day or so. We are hopeful that this month is it. But then again, we feel this every month lol. I have been told to BD every other day by fellow Cysters but my RE hasn't said anything about that. So DH and I have decided to BD when we want to! If it is every day, then it is every day. DH has said that his sperm should be OK because he has super sperm. The RE shared his s/a results on our last follow up. His count was at 75mil. and 70% mot.
The RE has said that she likes to see it at 25mil. and 50% mot. So he is good to go!!

Rollercoaster

It was just last night that my DH and I realized that we have been living month to month since we started TTC. Every month, waiting to see if this would be it. This stress, paired with the clomid/serophene, is quite an emotional rollercoaster for the both of us.
Sometimes I wonder, when is it enough. When do we stop waiting. I am holding off changing jobs because this might be the month and because no company will want a new hire who will only work a few months and then go on mat leave for a year. We are being frugal with our money so that we will be able to buy all the things we want to for a new baby.
I'm on CD17 today, so we should be ready to start doing the BD around Friday or Saturday. I don't even know if I will O this cycle since I am not on any meds or being monitored. But it won't stop us from trying :)
I'm not one for rollercoasters but I will be staying on this one, at least until we can't go anymore.

Here are some of the lyrics from the Dixie Chicks song "So Hard". Definitely hits home with me!


It felt like a given
Something a woman's born to do
A natural ambition
To see a reflection of me and you

And I'd feel so guilty
If that was a gift I couldn't give
And could you be happy
If life wasn't how we pictured it

And sometimes I just want to wait it out
To prove everybody wrong
And I need your help to move on
Cause you know it's so hard

It's so hard
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hard when it doesn't come fast
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
So hard

Quiet Sunday

So I am just taking it easy today. The weekends are never long enough and I never seem to find the time to just sit and relax. So this afternoon, I am relaxing. Although I have to start making supper soon lol.
Weigh in yesterday was good. I lost 1 lb. That brings my total to 40lbs with 24lbs to go.

Weigh in tomorrow

So tomorrow is weigh in. Not sure how I did this week since I really didn't plan my meals for the week. I'm disappointed but who knows. I would love to lose 1 pound because that would bring me into a new level. I didn't exercise as much as I wanted either. For whatever reason, I can't seem to get adjusted to the time change.
With the gym opening up again after renovations at work, I will be able to do my weights and abs there. Leaving me with cardio to do at home, which I currently do at 4:30am.
So as of today, I have lost a total of 39 pounds. I'm hoping for at least one more tomorrow.

Trying not to think too much about babies. But it's hard with so many people in my circle of friends and co-workers either pregnant or with kids. I'm on cd11 and I should O somewhere around March 25th. RE says that I shouldn't bother temping since I am monitored throughout my cycles so closely. This cycle being the exception of course since I am on a break due to cysts. I'm hoping they will heal by the time I go for my next u/s so we can start back on the Serophene and start Ovidrel.

Well, here it goes!!

So here is my first post with Blogger!
I want to share my ups and downs of TTC, PCOS and weight loss. I will also try to share some low-fat/cal recipes that I have tried.

I am trying to lose the weight that I have put on in the last few years. I joined weight watchers on Nov 24 and so far I have lost a total of 39lbs. So I am very excited about that!! 25lbs to go to reach goal weight!
Since losing the weight, some of my PCOS symptoms have gone away. What a bonus.
Now I'm hoping that the weight loss will also help us to conceive.
I am currently on a break from the Serophene and follow ups until April 3rd when my RE will hopefully give us the A-OK to get back on. I have hemorrhagic cysts that must heal before we try again, so I am crossing my fingers that all is good. And if it is, we will also start the Ovidrel. Nothing but good things to come!
But I am still secretly hoping that this month, since I am not being poked and drugged, maybe, just maybe, I will ovulate on my own and we will get pg.