One week...

I'll be honest, I really don't know if I can do this! Well, I'm pretty sure I can do this once I'm on a routine, but I think I should say I really don't know if I WANT to do this!! I love my DH so much. He's my best friend and the person that I tell everything to. What am I going to do without him or someone to talk to? I know that most women have their moms to talk to or a BFF, but I am not one of those women. I have great friends, but none that I really talk to about everything. I don't like people spreading my business around and so I don't share it! I come from a smallish town where gossip is like gold and I just don't want my gold going around.
My DH leaves in a week. He'll be gone for around 5-6 weeks before we can see him! It will be 1-2 weeks before we can speak to him. And we can only chat on weekends. It's crazy!! But I know he's doing this for us, for the kids.
To add to my stress, a close family friend that I know as an Aunt passed away yesterday. It was unexpected even though she had health issues. She was having tests done to help her but nothing pointed to her passing on so soon. She came to all our family functions and is going to be missed dearly. I don't do well with people passing on at all...I mean no one really is, but I cry at the drop of a hat. It's going to be busy the next few days with visitation, funeral and swearing in.
And on top of all this, I have to make some food to freeze and clean the house. Ugh...I hope I can do this!!!

My mind is like a hamster on its exercise wheel!

I can't seem to stop my mind from going and going. If I stop myself from thinking about one thing, another one creeps in. I'm exhausted.
I am currently planning my son's baptism which is coming up in about a week and a half. It's not too bad, but we are having a reception afterwards and I have food to make. Then my DH is leaving on Nov. 6th. And I actually don't want to think about that. I've got to make some blankets for my kids and my friend's daughter. I have to get down to my Dad's and help clean up the house for when we stay there. I have to clean this house and get my DD's winter clothes out and mine! I have to make some frozen meals so that I don't completely go crazy and not eat when my hubby's gone. We have to do our Christmas shopping but since my DH is not working and we are living off my 55% salary, our families will not be getting big gifts this year, let me tell you. In fact, DH and I won't be exchanging gifts. We will spend it on the kids. Well more for DD. She has her bday at the beginning of the month and then Xmas. DS is still too small to really appreciate it, but we will definitely get him a few little toys.
I need to purchase an Ergo carrier. DS is such a whiney bugger and is only happy when I'm carrying him. He's heavy though and the carrier that I have is great but it hurts my back. So I have to go to Ottawa for that. The list just keeps growing...
Thanks for reading this ramble. I needed to get it out there. Again, I'm sure there will be more of these to come!