21 weeks

So I am now 21 weeks...definitely into my second half. Everyone that I speak to says that I don't look anywhere near to being 5 1/2 months. I am happy to hear that I don't look like I've gained tons of weight but on the other hand, my mind goes into overdrive. So now I'm wondering if everything is OK with our little monkey. I mean everyone says I should be feeling things now. I'll be honest, I don't feel any shoves or kicks or anything like that. And I'm still second guessing myself about the flutters. It's tough when no one's pregnancy is the same.

I'll stop thinking about it cuz I'm driving myself crazy. So, I will focus on the positive. I have gained 10 lbs since the start of the pregnancy. I'm pretty happy about that when I hear that other people have gained 50-80lbs. I'm not out of the woods yet but I'm hoping I can keep control lol.

Here is a picture that was taken just yesterday of my belly. I think it's getting there!!!

Let me know what you think!!!

Oh and that's part of our garden in the background. It's not doing too bad so far this year!! Can't wait for everything to ready.

Our Garden

It has been 1 year since we moved into our new home. Last year, it was too late to plant a vegetable garden. This year, we managed to plant one. We weren't sure how it would do but so far, it looks good. We only planted 5 different veggies; pink tomatoes, green peppers, red peppers, onions and cucumbers. We didn't want to go too crazy and then find out we picked a bad spot lol. We didn't. The garden is going crazy!! We had bugs eating the leaves, so I have sprayed a little eco friendly insecticide. Now they are looking great. We planted a little late which means that the fruits of our labour will be ready a little later. But that's OK - it's going to taste great!! Also, we have garlic. The people who had gardens before us must have planted them and they just keep coming back. The only problem is that they are in the middle of the grass! We are going to try and transplant them this year, otherwise, we will just plant new ones.
It's amazing to me how relaxing working in the garden is. Ok, well I just sit and watch as my DH works in the garden. It's difficult for me to stay bent over for long periods of time, so he gets to weed.
Maybe once we have weeded the entire garden, I will be able to post a pic!!

Still growing strong!!

So we had an u/s today and it couldn't have come sooner. Everyone keeps asking me if I feel our little monkey, but I don't think I do. I feel flutters when I lay down at night, but I always second guess myself.
Today however, we got to see that he/she was moving and enjoying their current home.
The tech wasn't great. She didn't really tell us anything and we had to pull information out of her. And all we got was 1 picture. And it's not very clear. We did get to see pretty much everything. Except of course the sex of the baby. We want it to be a surprise. But the baby's legs were crossed so I don't know if we would have seen anything even if we wanted to know.
It was very reassuring to see our little one. We also received our results from the IPS test and the Doc says everything looks great.
Once I have the pic available to post - I will.

Homeownership...

I haven't been around lately because all we've been working on is the house. Inside and out.
It just never ends.
DH just finished sealing the driveway and it took 4- 18L pails to almost finish it. We need 1 more pail to be able to finish the driveway completely. Luckily, our other driveway is gravel.
We also bought exterior paint so that we can paint the house. We knew this had to be done when we bought the house. Probably one of the reasons it was on the market so long is because there was a lot of work to be done. It's not so much expensive work but labour intensive.
Because I don't have the same stamina as before, I tend to work in the gardens. Important none the less.
We've also painted the baby's room. It definitely needs a second coat. That will be done this week. Then by September, we will put in the new floor.
I enjoy seeing the before and afters of it all. It really shows how far the house has come. We are not ready to sell but we always keep that in mind when we do any updates.
There is a beautiful hobby farm on the market not too far from us. 30 acres of land with barns and of course the original farm house built in 1892. It's so what we would love. However, we are not there yet. We both want land to be able to have our own animals and a HUGE garden. And of course to let the kids just be able to go out and play. We want them to have room to go out and use their imagination. Not be the kind of kids who sit in front of a TV/video game/computer all the time.
We aren't there yet, but we will get there. That's for sure.
I actually want a big farmhouse and I want my father to come and live with us. This way here he can do as he pleases and he doesn't HAVE to take care of everything himself. And of course he won't be alone. Of course these are all just thoughts/ideas right now. Nothing will be changing in the short term but definitely a long term goal.

Time off - time flies

So I am off this Monday and Tuesday from work. It feels good to have a 4 day weekend! We don't really have anything planned but since I'm not sure if we will be taking any vacation, it will have to do.
I will be 4 months tomorrow. Wow...time is going fast and slow at the same time.
I am getting bigger already. I will have to post a new pic soon. And I am feeling like a big fattie, before I lost my weight. When nothing I tried on fit right and I was always uncomfortable. So I am already wearing some maternity clothes. I have a friend who lent me a bin full of clothes, so I don't have to go out and buy a whole lot - even though I want to.
I have bought a few pieces. But since hubby is still not working, I'm not buying too much.
We are also in the process of getting ready to paint the baby's room. It's going to be a pale green. DH doesn't want a sage green, he says it is a little on the dark side for the baby. We will see.
And we did buy our first baby thing - a diaper bag. It is so cute! I'm not talented enough this early in the morning to post a pic of it lol. But it is brown/beige with bright colours and a bear. Very neutral and not too frou-frou! Which if you know me, I'm not so much a frou-frou person. There's actually a bedding set that goes with it. So I think that's the route we are going to go. I have seen some gorgeous bedding but I can't justify spending 300$ for a set that will barely get used since the blanket is not even used in the bed lol.

Dang that PCOS!!!

So the symptoms are back. I have been off the Metformin for 5 weeks and I feel the difference. I'm not complaining, that's for sure. I am just surprised that they came back. Everything I had read about PCOS is that once you lose weight, your symptoms fade and even go away. Not the case for me I guess.
I feel like I'm blowing up. And it's hard to say if it is baby or if it is PCOS. I would like to say baby - so for now we will stick with this :)
I have my 2nd OB appointment on Tuesday, so I am looking forward to it. My DH will be able to come with me again, which I love. We aren't sure if it will be another US or just the heartbeat. Either way, it will be great to hear/see Baby Hammie again.

On another topic, we did the coolest thing today. My MIL called this morning and invited us to the airport (it's a little local one - nothing commercial), where they were offering an all you can eat breakfast outdoors and then if you wanted to, you could sign up and take a spin in a little Cessna. So my DH and FIL took a spin. Neither of them have flown, so they were ecstatic!!! They said it was crazy fun. It was a gorgeous day out here for it. So cool, when I lived back in the city, I don't think there was ever something that cool to do!! Yay for the country life lol.

Will I ever be able to enjoy this???

Even though we had our appointment not too long ago and saw baby Hammie moving all over the place, every once in a while I worry. I wonder if everything is still OK. I have my next OB appointment in one week but it's going to be long until then. I keep worrying that since my symptoms are gone, that it is not a good sign. I check my belly for where it is hard and convince myself its gone. So I have my DH check it. He says it's fine.
Maybe all the obstacles we went through to get to this point makes me feel like it just isn't happening.
On the other hand, I know that the baby is fine. And I don't worry about every little twinge.
I guess it is still sinking in that we are actually pregnant. 14 weeks today.
Wow.
I just have to keep my thoughts positive....we have a baby coming!